i am a stubborn girl with a very patient God

a few themes from my journal over the past three months


"A soul is all the more dependent on grace the more it aspires to go onto perfection." -Brother Lawrence

"From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live." -Acts 17.26

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." -Hebrews 13.8

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." -Galatians 1.10

"On the contrary, we speak as men approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts." -1 Thessalonians 2.4

"Take my Life and Let it be Consecrated Lord to Thee"

Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord, to thee.
Take my moments and my days, let them flow in ceaseless praise.
Take my hands and let them move at the impulse of thy love.
Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for thee.

Take my voice and let me sing always, only for my king.
Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from thee.
Take my silver and my gold not a might would I withhold.
Take my intellect and use every power as you choose.

::Chorus::
Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for thee.

Take my will and make it Thine it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart it is thine own; it shall be thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord I pour at your feet its treasure store
Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee,
Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee.

Here am I, All of me.
Take my life, It's all for thee.

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." -Psalm 139.14

"Your cross has spoken mercy over me" -one line of "Beautiful One" by Jeremy Camp

And this song that i have not heard in a very long time came to me today and it was as if God was really saying to me the words:

I hear the Savior say,
“Thy strength indeed is small;
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.”

Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe;
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow.

a patient God

i thought i had completely forgotten my password for my blog... and i think as it turned out that i actually forgot my username. and since this is also attached to an email where all of the songs that i have written are sent to (and i dont think i have copied elsewhere) i have been quite bummed about not being able to remember these things. so, what to do? by the way this was december when i couldnt remember. so, over two months later, i had the brilliant idea that i should pray about it. and really, not even an hour later, i was able to remember both!
i am currently in Costa Rica, and maybe someday i will fill you in on how exactly i got here, but it has been an incredibly challenging trip, yet also i have grown so much. this past week, i had been feeling very prompted to read back through my journal of the last few months and what i have been doing and praying about and all. i am almost done with it, but i see themes that run through the past three months of my life. themes that i will write about in another post. and so many times i didnt even realize that i was repeating the same thing over and over again just a few days apart from the other. i am just seeing through this that God is oh so very patient with me and my humanity, and just keeps on showing me the same over and over and over. ok... more later.