a few themes from my journal over the past three months
"A soul is all the more dependent on grace the more it aspires to go onto perfection." -Brother Lawrence
"From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live." -Acts 17.26
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." -Hebrews 13.8
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." -Galatians 1.10
"On the contrary, we speak as men approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts." -1 Thessalonians 2.4
"Take my Life and Let it be Consecrated Lord to Thee"
Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord, to thee.
Take my moments and my days, let them flow in ceaseless praise.
Take my hands and let them move at the impulse of thy love.
Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for thee.
Take my voice and let me sing always, only for my king.
Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from thee.
Take my silver and my gold not a might would I withhold.
Take my intellect and use every power as you choose.
::Chorus::
Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for thee.
Take my will and make it Thine it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart it is thine own; it shall be thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord I pour at your feet its treasure store
Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee,
Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee.
Here am I, All of me.
Take my life, It's all for thee.
"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." -Psalm 139.14
"Your cross has spoken mercy over me" -one line of "Beautiful One" by Jeremy Camp
And this song that i have not heard in a very long time came to me today and it was as if God was really saying to me the words:
I hear the Savior say,
“Thy strength indeed is small;
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.”
Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe;
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
a patient God
i thought i had completely forgotten my password for my blog... and i think as it turned out that i actually forgot my username. and since this is also attached to an email where all of the songs that i have written are sent to (and i dont think i have copied elsewhere) i have been quite bummed about not being able to remember these things. so, what to do? by the way this was december when i couldnt remember. so, over two months later, i had the brilliant idea that i should pray about it. and really, not even an hour later, i was able to remember both!
i am currently in Costa Rica, and maybe someday i will fill you in on how exactly i got here, but it has been an incredibly challenging trip, yet also i have grown so much. this past week, i had been feeling very prompted to read back through my journal of the last few months and what i have been doing and praying about and all. i am almost done with it, but i see themes that run through the past three months of my life. themes that i will write about in another post. and so many times i didnt even realize that i was repeating the same thing over and over again just a few days apart from the other. i am just seeing through this that God is oh so very patient with me and my humanity, and just keeps on showing me the same over and over and over. ok... more later.
i am currently in Costa Rica, and maybe someday i will fill you in on how exactly i got here, but it has been an incredibly challenging trip, yet also i have grown so much. this past week, i had been feeling very prompted to read back through my journal of the last few months and what i have been doing and praying about and all. i am almost done with it, but i see themes that run through the past three months of my life. themes that i will write about in another post. and so many times i didnt even realize that i was repeating the same thing over and over again just a few days apart from the other. i am just seeing through this that God is oh so very patient with me and my humanity, and just keeps on showing me the same over and over and over. ok... more later.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
vast and magnificent God.
We cannot grasp, in our flesh, how vast our God is. He knows us before He even creates us (Jeremiah 1). He knows every person He creates. Our finite minds cannot comprehend how intimate a Father can be with all of His children, yet He knows each one of us, because He created each of us, with the desires, the abilities, the features that we have. He even knows how many hairs are on each and every one of our heads - yet why and how can we doubt not only the Creator of the universe who keeps things going in all its beauty, but the Maker of each and every one of us, and who is so intimately connected with us individually to know the number of hairs on our heads? (A detail I doubt most of us think about - and it changes more than once in a day!)
Saturday, May 23, 2009
The voice of the Lord is powerful and majestic
The voice of the Lord is powerful and majestic. - Ps 29:4
"The voice of the Lord breaks the cedars; yes, the Lord breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon." -Psalm 29:5
Cedars of Lebanon: this tree can grow up to 130ft tall and over 8ft in diameter.
Deuteronomy 8
The Lord humbles us and lets us be "hungry" so that we must trust that He will provide for us. We do not live by bread alone, but by what proceeds out of the mouth of the Lord. (The voice of the Lord is powerful and majestic).
We must beware, for when we have eaten and are satisfied, when things are going well, our hearts tend to become proud. He does these things so that we can never say that we have achieved all the wealth and glory for ourselves by ourselves, we have only been able to come this far because of Him and Him alone. (Deut. 8:17)
"Remember the Lord Your God. He is the one whoe give you power to be successful, in order to fulfill the covenant He confirmed to your ancestors with an oath." -Deut. 8:18
"The voice of the Lord breaks the cedars; yes, the Lord breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon." -Psalm 29:5
Cedars of Lebanon: this tree can grow up to 130ft tall and over 8ft in diameter.
Deuteronomy 8
The Lord humbles us and lets us be "hungry" so that we must trust that He will provide for us. We do not live by bread alone, but by what proceeds out of the mouth of the Lord. (The voice of the Lord is powerful and majestic).
We must beware, for when we have eaten and are satisfied, when things are going well, our hearts tend to become proud. He does these things so that we can never say that we have achieved all the wealth and glory for ourselves by ourselves, we have only been able to come this far because of Him and Him alone. (Deut. 8:17)
"Remember the Lord Your God. He is the one whoe give you power to be successful, in order to fulfill the covenant He confirmed to your ancestors with an oath." -Deut. 8:18
Sunday, May 10, 2009
silhouette
What is going on?
I don't feel like myself here
I can't control even my next breath
so why do I even try?
You have such an incredible plan that I can't even fathom
Strip me of my flesh
Unveil me
Let me be more than a mere
silhouette of who You are
I feel like I'm standing in a stagnant place
And I need Your help to move
I need humility and wisdom
And I need to trust You alone.
More than anything I need more of You
Strip me of my flesh
Unveil me
Let me be more than a mere
silhouette of who You are.
I don't feel like myself here
I can't control even my next breath
so why do I even try?
You have such an incredible plan that I can't even fathom
Strip me of my flesh
Unveil me
Let me be more than a mere
silhouette of who You are
I feel like I'm standing in a stagnant place
And I need Your help to move
I need humility and wisdom
And I need to trust You alone.
More than anything I need more of You
Strip me of my flesh
Unveil me
Let me be more than a mere
silhouette of who You are.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
He goes before
There were two weeks where I really did not know if I could do this anymore. Every single day was a struggle. Every. Single. Day. But the last few days have been a world better. I can't even begin to explain. And I was able to go to church today. I went to Woodmen Valley Chapel in Colorado Springs, and the message was amazing. I would strongly suggest listening to it when it comes out: March 8th, Part 7 of Matt Heard's podcasts: http://www.woodmenvalley.org/index.cfm/PageID/218/cfid/9989947/cftoken/87036977/index.html
God has brought me here for SO many reasons. I know of only a couple, because I am not able to see the entire picture as I am here on this earth, but my only responsibility is this: to seek God with all of my heart. All of my heart, and I am not able to do that if my heart is divided. So, I am in the process of calling out some of the things that are dividing my heart. I don't want my heart to be divided.
I am reading "As Silver Refined" by Kay Arthur right now, and I can't even tell how the numerous times that I've picked up the book and it's been something that I have desperately needed to hear at that particular moment. This is a poem by an unknown author that she included in her book that I read the other day with tears streaming down my face:
Child of My love, fear not the unknown morrow.
Dread not the new demand life makes of thee;
Thine ignorance doth hold no cause for sorrow,
For what thou knowest not is known to Me.
Thou canst not see today the hidden meaning
Of My command, but thou the light shall gain.
Walk on in faith, upon My promise leaning,
And as thou goest, all shall be made plain.
One step thou seest: Then go forward boldly;
One step is far enough for faith to see.
Take that, and they next duty shall be told thee,
For step by step they God is leading thee.
Stand not in fear, thine adversaries counting;
Dare ever peril, save to disobey.
Thou shalt march on, each obstacle surmounting,
For I, the Strong, shall open up the way.
Therefore go gladly to the task assigned thee,
Having My promise; needing nothing more
Than just to know where'er the future find thee,
In all thy journeying ---I GO BEFORE.
I write this:
Strip away my flesh
take all my unrighteousness
make me more like You
Strip away this flesh
my Silversmith.
I had a flat tire after church, which I was not too thrilled about, let me just tell you! I changed it in a skirt and heels... so, I went to get it fixed, and they tell me that all my tires are in really bad shape, and they tell me the measurements and that I really should replace them all, and since I just got paid, I say ok, let's just get it over with. While I'm still talking with the guy, another guy brings out another one of my tires and says "By the way ma'am, you made a great choice. Look." And in the middle of the tread the tire is about to split in half. And they tell me that I definitely would not have liked the outcome of that. I will say this: I live about 9 miles down a dirt road right now and half of it is not even wide enough to pass another car on, and most of it is one side is the mountain going up and the other side is a terrible drop off. A flat tire saved me from the possibility of winding up off the side of the mountain...without cell service no less. And that is why I am genuinely saying right now: "Hallelujah, thank You Jesus, for a flat tire!"
God has brought me here for SO many reasons. I know of only a couple, because I am not able to see the entire picture as I am here on this earth, but my only responsibility is this: to seek God with all of my heart. All of my heart, and I am not able to do that if my heart is divided. So, I am in the process of calling out some of the things that are dividing my heart. I don't want my heart to be divided.
I am reading "As Silver Refined" by Kay Arthur right now, and I can't even tell how the numerous times that I've picked up the book and it's been something that I have desperately needed to hear at that particular moment. This is a poem by an unknown author that she included in her book that I read the other day with tears streaming down my face:
Child of My love, fear not the unknown morrow.
Dread not the new demand life makes of thee;
Thine ignorance doth hold no cause for sorrow,
For what thou knowest not is known to Me.
Thou canst not see today the hidden meaning
Of My command, but thou the light shall gain.
Walk on in faith, upon My promise leaning,
And as thou goest, all shall be made plain.
One step thou seest: Then go forward boldly;
One step is far enough for faith to see.
Take that, and they next duty shall be told thee,
For step by step they God is leading thee.
Stand not in fear, thine adversaries counting;
Dare ever peril, save to disobey.
Thou shalt march on, each obstacle surmounting,
For I, the Strong, shall open up the way.
Therefore go gladly to the task assigned thee,
Having My promise; needing nothing more
Than just to know where'er the future find thee,
In all thy journeying ---I GO BEFORE.
I write this:
Strip away my flesh
take all my unrighteousness
make me more like You
Strip away this flesh
my Silversmith.
I had a flat tire after church, which I was not too thrilled about, let me just tell you! I changed it in a skirt and heels... so, I went to get it fixed, and they tell me that all my tires are in really bad shape, and they tell me the measurements and that I really should replace them all, and since I just got paid, I say ok, let's just get it over with. While I'm still talking with the guy, another guy brings out another one of my tires and says "By the way ma'am, you made a great choice. Look." And in the middle of the tread the tire is about to split in half. And they tell me that I definitely would not have liked the outcome of that. I will say this: I live about 9 miles down a dirt road right now and half of it is not even wide enough to pass another car on, and most of it is one side is the mountain going up and the other side is a terrible drop off. A flat tire saved me from the possibility of winding up off the side of the mountain...without cell service no less. And that is why I am genuinely saying right now: "Hallelujah, thank You Jesus, for a flat tire!"
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Home
Home:
–noun
1.
a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household.
2.
the place in which one's domestic affections are centered.
3.
an institution for the homeless, sick, etc.: a nursing home.
4.
the dwelling place or retreat of an animal.
5.
the place or region where something is native or most common.
6.
any place of residence or refuge: a heavenly home.
7.
a person's native place or own country.
8.
(in games) the destination or goal.
9.
a principal base of operations or activities
1 Peter 1:1 "...to God's elect, strangers in the world, scattered throughout..."
we are pilgrims....... so where is my home? Currently I would have to say Colorado, but yet it doesn't feel like home to me, but it does not have to feel like it. God is sovereign, and He has a purpose for my being here right now, and whether or not I know what that reason is is beside the point.
–noun
1.
a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household.
2.
the place in which one's domestic affections are centered.
3.
an institution for the homeless, sick, etc.: a nursing home.
4.
the dwelling place or retreat of an animal.
5.
the place or region where something is native or most common.
6.
any place of residence or refuge: a heavenly home.
7.
a person's native place or own country.
8.
(in games) the destination or goal.
9.
a principal base of operations or activities
1 Peter 1:1 "...to God's elect, strangers in the world, scattered throughout..."
we are pilgrims....... so where is my home? Currently I would have to say Colorado, but yet it doesn't feel like home to me, but it does not have to feel like it. God is sovereign, and He has a purpose for my being here right now, and whether or not I know what that reason is is beside the point.
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